Where to go

“The hardest step is the next step.”

I’m having a hard time moving forward.

Right now I feel incapable of really doing anything. I feel stuck and unable to move out of this pit I continue to create for myself each day.

I tell myself I want to start doing something different but I don’t know what that thing is so instead I do exactly what I do every other day.

For some reason I am so confused by myself. I cannot tell what I want. I feel like I know what I want but every time I get close to getting it, I give up. Maybe it’s because I have failed to get it so many times, or maybe it’s because once I have it, it’s never as great as I hype it up to be.

Some sort of direction would be nice.

Some sort of guidance would be great.

Now when the weather is warm and the sun is up 16 hours a day is when I am having the hardest time. I always used to think that the summer season would make everything easier. But now when the sky is blue, I am feeling the same way.

It’ll pass though.

EVERY FEELING PASSES IN TIME.

Emotions are an ever-changing wave. If you just learn to tell yourself you’ll always end up being okay you will. That’s why I can accept feeling down for a bit, because I know I won’t feel like this forever.

It’s my fault I feel this way. I cannot blame anything or anyone else for the way I feel because it’s completely in my own mind.

Maybe I need to start writing about something else. It’s not easy to constantly give out positive advice when you don’t even feel positive. It’s hard to constantly hype yourself up when you don’t even believe in yourself.

But I think everyone should know that that feeling isn’t constant.

I like reality.

And reality is, no matter how happy someone seems, they still get sad. They still feel all the emotions like you do. No matter how good their life seems, it still isn’t great at times. But that’s life.

RECOGNIZING THE LOWS ALLOWS YOU TO BETTER APPRECIATE THE HIGHS.

I don’t like to bury my emotions deep inside like most people. I don’t like to fake that I’m happy when I’m not. But I don’t worry because I know I will find it.

Sometimes it’s nice to feel sad.

I don’t like to sulk in my gloom, but every once in a while a change of emotion feels good.

I often have to remind myself of why I do this.

I don’t do this to impress anyone. I don’t do this to make money. I don’t do this to get a reaction out of people.

I only do this to show what a normal person goes through.

I like to share real things that I have done to make myself feel better about myself, but I also think it’s important to show that I don’t always feel amazing about myself.

People need to see that.

You don’t really get to see the bad days anymore. Everything is filtered. They don’t want you to see the ugly, so they hide it from you and make you think it doesn’t exist.

It’s still there.

And if you feel like that, it’s normal, trust me.

So maybe today wasn’t the most inspiring day ever. Maybe I have a hard time thinking of something to inspire every day. But it was real. I meant what I said and I think it’s good you know that.

No matter how you feel, it’s okay.

It’ll all be okay.

Just keep trudging along.

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So thanks for reading.

If you do, I appreciate you.

I do my best, I truly do, and if this helps you I’m happy.